Serving those who are responding to God’s call to love.


I’ve been home for a month…now what? My emotions upon arriving home have been all over the place! Like imagine shaking a box with a ball in it. Well I feel like I’m that ball. I either want to go hang out with people or I want to stay home and have quiet time with God. I feel like I’m constantly on the go and there is no stopping.

What is really teaching me patience is how I feel like I’m not doing anything here. In YWAM we were on the go, preaching to fisherman, giving sermons, doing so much for the glory of God but here I feel like I’m not doing anything. I mean, I know I am because we are all called to be missionaries in our workplaces, schools, ect. Wherever you do life. It’s just so hard. In Mexico, we saw the fruit of our labor. Here, I don’t see anything.

God is still at work in my life just as he was in Mexico! That has not changed nor slowed down. He reveals himself to me in new ways each day. I’m learning that my quiet time with God is vital to make it through my crazy days.

This whole writing might be hard to read or understand but I really can’t explain how I’m feeling or what is going on in my head. All I know is that I feel out of place here and it’s a bumpy road to get things back to normal. Which I’m pretty sure nothing will go back to normal because I am not the same person I was when I had left for YWAM to begin with. So I guess “back to normal” is the wrong wording but I don’t know what the right wording would be.

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